2006/07/03, 07:54 AM
A couple of weeks back,I realized with some clarity that I will never be 130lbs again..My body likes being 145,its easy for me to maintain,Iam exercising and gaining lots of muscle.And so the weight loss thing for me has become secondary. It is no longer my primary goal.
Being healthy is vital to me.
After having 5 kids,my hips have gotten wider,I naturally have large muscular legs and broad shoulders,and nothing is going to change the structure of my body.
I may never get washboard abs,but my stomach is concave now,my posture is better and I feel fantastic.I love the way my body is transforming.I have more confidence now that I have had in a very long time
Sure there are areas that I would love to tweak,it may or may not happen,but Iam not going to hinge my overall success on a few areas.
Iam small but iam strong,and continue to get stronger physically with each workout.I continue to gain strength mentally with each workout.
A beautiful body is subjective.I do have a beautiful body,it has carried me through 42 years of life,5 pregnancies,two marriages and numerous ups and downs,and yet it has never failed me.
I walk with pride now.I may not be as small as some say I should,but I no longer define who Iam, by other's standards. I no longer compare my body to anyone else's,this is the body I have been given,and over time it has adjusted to life in its own way,on its own terms.
I am so much happier now,having dumped all the body image baggage.It gives me more motivation and allows me to give attention to other details of my life,like raising two healthy,happy daughters.
It may have taken me 42 years to get where iam today,but like all journeys in life,the end result is worth the effort.
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