2003/09/28, 03:55 PM
hey how’s it going, I haven’t posted a topic in along time , i ve been so busy with football and school its unimaginable. The first week of school my step grandma died and I had to fly to Pennsylvania for a week and go through the whole process, very sad time for everyone, then i felt like crap for a month of school returning, i just made up all my work, but I have been killing myself physically and mentally between staying up until god knows when with school work after getting home at 7-9 from football practice. I have trained, run , jogged, sprinted, weight lifted, and done everything possible to become a great football player, even gone to FSU FOOTBALL CAMP, the Defensive ends coach there thought I was a fantastic player and so did many many other coaches and players, they told me straight out what they thought. Honestly some of the coaches there told me they wished I played on there team. And now that back here in season I'm barely put in the game , they start people who just came to the school ahead of me , GOD KNOWS WHY??? , and its based on a 1 coach decision , he always tells me how great I am at practice and is always so enthusiastic. Now I can tell when I’m doing a good and bad job. And I know I’m not doing bad job. We just played this huge rival of ours a few days ago and we haven’t beat this team in 20 years, we went into triple over time with them and lost , me and whole team were heart broken ,but I didn’t play one down the whole game , I just stood there cheering them on for 3 hours in the rain. Now I’m sick as hell and I don’t know what I’m going to do. I just wanted to have a good, senior year, lightly loaded in school , have a bunch of friends , have a starting position , be able to drive, make a high SAT score , and if I was really lucky have a great girl friend.
CA FAIT MAL, OH boy i need help again
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2003/09/29, 11:43 AM
I did , i asked him if i was doing something wrong at practice and he said "NO", at the end of every week before the game i asked hime how i did this week and he always says"I'm doing great and everything he wants me to do". so finally i went to him and asked him why I'm not starting and why I'm playing so much and he said just because that was his decision and the guy in front of me is just a little stronger and has a little better technique than me, !!!!!!! this one game he got injured , so me being next in line i would go in , instead he takes this guy who just joined our team like a month ago and puts him in instead of me :(, and that happened with another game as well, and when i asked coach why he said that guy was just in front of me and thats just the way it is. !!!!! This game was televised on TV and all my team mates agreed that he got blown off the ball every play or blocked. All i know is, that very few things are working out.
And It's bloody torture just standing there while everyone else is playing and I've worked as hard as i Possibly could, I've trained for 4 years in this sport , and it;s like I'm fuc*ing invisible.!!!!!!!!!!
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