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What am I doing to myself?
I keep saying that I am going to lose this weight. I have all the motivating factors I could possibly have, but my will is weak. I plan high lean protein meals and do not keep junk food in the house. But, I crave carbs all the time. I have not eliminated carbs from my diet but I have reduced them and I have changed many starchs to healthier options. I actually prefer brown rice over white, wheat bread over white, and whole wheat pasta over regualr pasta. But my body wants more. Is it my body or is it my brain focusing on old habits? I crave sugar even though I try to avoid it as best I can. My coffee not longer has sugar in it, I use Truvia instead. When I go to the gas station or some other similiar store though, the candy bars scream my name. I know better but sometimes that chocolate just wins. Why do I continue to put food in my mouth that I know will only hinder my goals? Why am I having such a hard time getting myself away from foods that I know are just empty calories? Why am I having such a hard time getting myself motivated to do anything? This is so frustrating. If only it was as easy to lose the weight as it was to put the weight on. I know that I can not give up, I know that even if I slip today, there is always tomorrow but sometimes I look in the mirror and am disappointed at myself for not being stronger, for allowing my body to become what it has, for just being me.