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I wish it were easy
firstly I'm new to this program.
I was feeling very upset today. I woke up this morning and checked my weight and I could not believe it!
88kg! That is waaaay too much! and not only that I have to flu today and told my doctor that I am trying to lose weight and was told that it would be difficult 'cause of my mum's genes and my heart just sank I mean I KNOW that its difficult I know it is and I've always known that. My friend even tells me that too. so does my mum!
And I feel I need to rant about this. It really, really upsets me when I get told that its too hard. I am so sick and tired of being told that sure weightloss is a challenging thing but I find that when I'm told its difficult it just helps to DE-motivate me! Its really not fair how i get told that it makes me feel really bad about my self and sometimes I feel like I lose hope instead of weight! this is so ridiculous. It really hurts that I was not gifted with a fast metabolism not only do I gain weight easily, I get TOLD that its difficult. I feel like I need some serious help becuase it is soooooo effing useless when I get told that. I mean I thought genes play a minor roll when comes to weight! so yeah I am literally upset right now I really am I am like tearing up right now.
bottom line it makes things very hard when people say its hard.
For years and years I have been on and off trying to lose this stubborn weight. sometimes I was successful but most of the time I wasn't. my weight never stays the same sometimes it high sometimes its low.
the problem for me is not only being told that its hard its also becuase I crash and eat junk food when it comes to special occassions or just one little nibble of some unhealthy thing wether its chocolate or chips cookies or cake.
I have always felt terrible about my weight ever since I was 12 I was never overweight all my life it was only up until my late teens that I became overweight.
anyway sorry that this a long and depressing Flog but I was just so upset that felt like letting this out
I have had a terrible day today.