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2014/07/31, 07:43 AM
I am 38 years old and have 4 children I have suffered on and off with an eating disorder for roughly 20 years now, I have never been massively big but with being only 5ft any weight i gain shows up quickly as was told that from my mother which gave me a very negative outlook in myself for the rest of my life, as i got pregnant with all my children i gained a lot of weight and after i had my children i went to extreme measures to remove the weight, this has been an ongoing thing, last year I eas very ill for almost the entire year and ended up being rushed into hospital in January this year to remove my gallbladder which left me recovering for quite a long period, my weight went down to 6st 9lbs, I knew i was thin and i knew i was ill but liked feeling thin, as i got better i gained the weight which i didn't mind too much, i still dont like the way i look at all as none of my skin has tightened up after having my children, my own fault as i haven't done any exercise to go with the weight loss, but the last week and a half I have made a decision to change my lifestyle for the better as I'm not getting any younger and I want to be a healthy mum for my children, so I have started eating better and walking briskly for 1-2 hours a day but I have noticed i am gaining more weight i am now 7stone 9lbs and my body feels swollen as my clothes now don't fit, ambitious doing something wrong? I am feeling like i want to go back to my old ways again but I also feel determined.
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