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Day One

Posted on: 2014/06/20, 02:42 AM
 
Oh No!!

So I woke up this morning, having not slept very well last night, to find my hair mousse had expoded during the night all over my boyfriends computer, keyboard and desk. I knew today wouldn't be good after that.

I spent last night binging on fatty foods because I felt useless, sick and also the World Cup. I know it's no excuse but I did it. I convinced myself that I would work it all off today. However, I just feel deflated. I cannot find any sort of motivation in me to get up and just get it done. I'm looking at myself and judging; the thunder thighs
, bloated belly, the big awl saggy arms and then the whole duble chin too. I'm only 19 so I really shouldn't feel this way but I do.

I just need someone to give me that kick up the backside and motivate me. Need new friends who will keep me going and show me that I can do it rather then putting me down and making me feel this useless....

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