Ok so last time I wrote a Flog was a while ago, early into my workout programme.
I just had a big break from writing in it while I got stuck in as I was just going steady with my new hobby and I'm also preety sure no one reads these things.
If you are reading this, then, Hey!
Although I havent been writing this Flog I've been doing really well I think. I've tuned my workout to a tee and it's always challenging and fun, My body is in much better shape but I do miss my cycling a bit.
I've discovered when it's sunny, it's a lot harder to workout, I just like to be out there enjoying the sun, and when you sit there in the gym, straight after work, with the last hours of the summer sun falling below the horizen I always think, "I should just be out on my bike".
I used to come home, have a bong of weed, go straight out onn my bike fopr various hours until night, come in, eat, relax then sleep.
But now, I hate that feeling of getting into the gym after work, coming inside when the sun has gone down, eat, bed. work.
It ruins my mental stablitiy, I need a good balance of riding and gym attendance, I could do with a road bike to combine the two better as I dont find cycling a chore by any means physically or mentally.
So over the middle of april I went into half term at my job in an educational facility, lot's of time off including my birthday. Since then and due to the fact thta my work rota dictates my gym attendance, I've been well out of shape! The weather was nicer soI rode (and smoked) more. I did hit the gym a couple of times but nothing dicaplined, the sun was shining too hard.
Then I came back to work, had a shakey weed of gym attendance and a poor diet becuase of my birthday and easter. It's scary how quickly I put it on again, I'm thinking of going and buying a diet shake to have for lunch from now on probably, i should check my bank first, that could be tomorows gift-to-self.
So this week I aim to get back on it, hard.
It started off awfuyl yesterday when I came home to an exciting parcel I've been waiting to get my hands on, I ended up spending my afternoon utilising it as Its imoportant for my business to get it working. So no gym there.
So today , straight to the gym after work. I'm picking up some weed later too so that should motivate me to wait, despite the crystal THC joint I have rolled up in my bag ready to go in-case-of-emergancy.
What makes it harder is I have discovered I am extremely adicted to nicotine again! FUUUUUCKKKKKKK
I don't want this, I've been a bit unreasonably mean to people recently and I know that is why, nicotine makes me a Dick-otine. hah.
I must cut down on that, I can't stop just yet.
I just can't.
Damn you friends and self-controll.
When I smoke only bongs i'm a nice guy most of the time, take my nicotine and BAM im a prick.
My mate who i smoke joints with gets the same mood swings but thinks it's something else and rejects the idea that nictine is causing it, he beleives it's the weed and puts less in his joints. making him less mellow and more angry and craving that next joint. Idiot.
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