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2004/04/14, 03:17 PM
Sorry to double post, I posted this In another forum but I think it pertains more so to here..........it was orginally entitled Endomorphic and proud!
Long time ago (9th grade) I started working out, not really into it I took it as a class for a P.E credit( either that or play b ball for an hour) Big boys aren't good at that lol. At this time I was abotu 5'10 and close to the 275lb mark..( lota fat 48in waist) .....I needed to lose weight. So I did( adkins) an dof coars eon this diet I yo- yo'ed Back and forth, gaining weight back, losing weight again. Got so burnt out I almost hated meat! ( ahh)To this day I still hate maynoise( had to put in on salads). Now That i look back on it i had a eating disorder, when I woke up I would weigh my self, if I was over 220, I wouldn't much that day, if i was under, I would eat a lil more. Bu tliek most fad diets I gained it back.
Then finally toward my 10th grade year I lost weight yet again on a different diet. My weight lifting coach said to me one day( Even though he didn't like me since I was a cheerleader, and not a football player) He said to me "I notice you having lil trouble with your weight" (Since we weighed in alot for lifting ratios). I was like yea kinda, I can't get stronger though now that i'm thinner why is that? he said well "what do you eat?" I was like mainly meat, lettice, cheese, cabbage, green beans, lil bit of milk.... "no carbs" he said? Try to keep them low, so I don't get fat again. Let me tell you a secret son...." you wana be as healthy as possible right?" Yea of coarse.... " woudl you rather be 5 lbs lighter and feel like shit all the time. Or be 5 or 10lbs heavier and feel strong and be healthy?"
That day I had an ephany, it really put things in perspecive for me. I didn't have to have a 32 in wiast to be "healthy".........and even more so, I got comfortable with me, Me as in my body type and size.....That ya i'm probably gonna be big my whole life, cause of genetics( mom and dad are big as well)........ I finaly got seanse knocked into me! If I was gona be big, might as well be muscle!........Now I'm 6'1'255lbs ( close to what I was at my biggest) but now I have a 39in waist. Still a lil big but i'll work on that later! But I have 10in waist differance and a 10% body fat differance as well.
Fact of the matter is gotta get comfortable with your self before you can make improvements, I believe anyways.I used to get offened when people asked me my wieght I would lie,or change subject. Now after getting a lil older and a lil more wiser, and learning from the expieranced ones, I have come to somthing.......I like being and endomorph! I liek being big....i'm never cold lol.....I might never have a six pack......... Or have a lil toned Body like Tinberlake. But hey I can live with that....
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.......adversity causes some to break, but others to break records!
......minds are not vessles to be filled, but fires to be enlightened
......Confucious once said ,DO NOT play leap frog with a unicorn
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2004/04/15, 01:31 PM
:) lol... you're so right. it's no good trying to change what you are meant to be, you gotta get comfortable with who you are, and then maybe if you still really really want to change that person you can see better how to do it. Me, I'm still looking for that state of being comfortable with my extra fat since having my two and a half year old kid. I used to weigh 130 lbs, now 165 after a year and a half of trying to lose weight from 180. I'm hoping this site can help me where others havent!!!
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